This weekend will be my last one for nearly a month that I will have my Saturday to myself and my family. I have been blessed in the fact that my wedding schedule is booking up. Isn't that crazy... it just astounds me. Thing is, I can't wait till next weekend because I get to test my skills on a professional level again. Sometimes when I look back on the last wedding I did I doubt my skills.
Do you know how hard it is to be THAT person that is capturing one of the most important days of a couples life. What if I mess up... what if they don't like my style...what if everything I have done up till now is a total fluke??? Yes, these are the "what ifs" that run through my mind.
So this week coming up I am going to mentally prepare myself (work myself up, more like) for the coming weeks. I am going to prepare my equipment, I am going to breathe deeply and I will put on my game face. I will try and be chipper and act like a leader even though I don't feel as though I am either of those things. I know, once I get there and get started, that it will all come naturally... at least it did last time. So if you don't mind... as you say your prayers this week... include me in them.
Also, to touch on my last blog... Church. We are going to attend at First Pres this Sunday. So if there are any of you first Pres folks out there that can give me a heads up on what we are walking into... it takes the edge off a little for a person coming into a new church. Why is it so hard to go somewhere new and feel comfortable????
When you go into a new church there are several things a newcomer wants to do/know... Is there a program for the children...if so where is it and how do I get there. Can you please point me in the direction of the bathroom BEFORE church starts because if there isn't a children's program my kids are 99% likely to need to go to the potty... it's a fact of life. What time does church begin? Please don't tell everyone I am a visitor... PLEASE. Just let me sit back and enjoy the service without drawing attention to me and my awkwardness. If you tell me your name when we shake hands please don't expect me to remember it, I am panicking at the moment and what you are saying to me is going in one ear and totally out the other. Also, the music is probably playing and I am nearly deaf in my right ear...I probably can't hear you, I apologize before hand. Also, while I am panicking I tend to forget my manners... as you are shking my hand, telling me your name, I just smile and nod and try to hide the panic behind my eyes. After I sit down I totally kick myself for forgeting to tell you my name or introducing you to my family. I think sometimes I am socially "special"...*sigh*. So with all of that said, please don't base your opinion of me from our first encounter... You are going to think I am a "female dog" or a "social short bus rider". I promise I am neither. In fact, I am kinda fun when I get comfortable.
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