Day 41

And 13 days to go...

We are a day closer to our end here. So what have I done to prepare for it? Well I packed up my bedroom today. I still haven't reserved the Moving truck because I still have no idea where we are going. There are phone calls to make to have things turned off, there are phone calls to make about a place to rent...though I have NO IDEA where we are going. I think of the long list of things that need to be done....that can't be done due to the fact that we have NO CLUE where we are gonna end up. Have I made that clear yet... 13 days and we are CLUELESS?!?!?!?

Okay...so there is one day between us and the beginning of the week, when interviews and possible phone calls might start up again. Jay does have 2 interviews scheduled for next week. He has the hint of 2 more...that have yet to be scheduled. We are waiting to hear from the companies... HELLO OUT THERE... Can you call us please...PLEASE?!?!?!?

Packing is doing a number on my body. My shoulders and back have been bothering me horribly for the last 2 days. I have sat with the heating pad just about all night.

The boys seem to be getting excited...Jakub more than Jack. Jack still thinks I am packing all of his toys up for goodwill. I assure him daily that he is going to get them back after we move. It's not like the child doesn't have tons left out to play with. He ORDERED me back in his room last night to "put my bed back to normal" because I have already taken down the bunk beds. He is confused, and I don't blame him...this is really all he knows.

Jakub starts back to school on Monday. I am trying to keep life as normal as possible and I don't want Jakub to miss much school. Hopefully he will only miss a week when we move.

So, that's where we are at the moment... I promise to keep you all updated.

Day 40-

End of the book of Montana...

It's sad as I sit here looking out the window. The beautiful trees and mountains...the rivers and lakes. It is all coming to an end for us in Montana soon. I tear up when I think about it. Even when our "book of Mississippi" ended I cried. I can't help it... I cry, just about over anything for that matter. Especially over change and big change really brings on the emotion.

We have made fantastic friends and wonderful memories here. So I should be enjoying our last two weeks here instead of feeling sorry for us and having a pity party. I just really, really have enjoyed Montana and feel lucky to be able to call it home, even if it was for a short time.

Most of my emotion stems from the fact that I have NO CLUE where we are going. It's hard coming from the life I had as a child and feeling those same emotions as an adult. It's a control thing. I take control, I must feel in control...control is my middle name. I don't have to control people so much as situations. In reality, we are never truly the one's in control... A wise man (my husband) once told me that control is an illusion. I suppose I really enjoy the mirage.

So here it is. I'm scared, excited, happy, sad and impatient all at the same time. >.<

I am asking, that all of our friends out there please just take a moment and remember us in your prayers. Smooth transition for our family...especially my kids. That Jason and I find jobs. That we get settled down wherever it is we are going so that we don't have to do this again. Health, happiness and mental wellbeing.

We love you all and will see most of you very soon, no matter where we end up we are planning on stopping in to see family on the way.