This weekend will be my last one for nearly a month that I will have my Saturday to myself and my family. I have been blessed in the fact that my wedding schedule is booking up. Isn't that crazy... it just astounds me. Thing is, I can't wait till next weekend because I get to test my skills on a professional level again. Sometimes when I look back on the last wedding I did I doubt my skills.
Do you know how hard it is to be THAT person that is capturing one of the most important days of a couples life. What if I mess up... what if they don't like my style...what if everything I have done up till now is a total fluke??? Yes, these are the "what ifs" that run through my mind.
So this week coming up I am going to mentally prepare myself (work myself up, more like) for the coming weeks. I am going to prepare my equipment, I am going to breathe deeply and I will put on my game face. I will try and be chipper and act like a leader even though I don't feel as though I am either of those things. I know, once I get there and get started, that it will all come naturally... at least it did last time. So if you don't mind... as you say your prayers this week... include me in them.
Also, to touch on my last blog... Church. We are going to attend at First Pres this Sunday. So if there are any of you first Pres folks out there that can give me a heads up on what we are walking into... it takes the edge off a little for a person coming into a new church. Why is it so hard to go somewhere new and feel comfortable????
When you go into a new church there are several things a newcomer wants to do/know... Is there a program for the children...if so where is it and how do I get there. Can you please point me in the direction of the bathroom BEFORE church starts because if there isn't a children's program my kids are 99% likely to need to go to the potty... it's a fact of life. What time does church begin? Please don't tell everyone I am a visitor... PLEASE. Just let me sit back and enjoy the service without drawing attention to me and my awkwardness. If you tell me your name when we shake hands please don't expect me to remember it, I am panicking at the moment and what you are saying to me is going in one ear and totally out the other. Also, the music is probably playing and I am nearly deaf in my right ear...I probably can't hear you, I apologize before hand. Also, while I am panicking I tend to forget my manners... as you are shking my hand, telling me your name, I just smile and nod and try to hide the panic behind my eyes. After I sit down I totally kick myself for forgeting to tell you my name or introducing you to my family. I think sometimes I am socially "special"...*sigh*. So with all of that said, please don't base your opinion of me from our first encounter... You are going to think I am a "female dog" or a "social short bus rider". I promise I am neither. In fact, I am kinda fun when I get comfortable.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Trying to Blog
I have totally fallen off the blog wagon in recent months. With our huge move back, searching for a home, work, establishing this "business", doing free lance and being wife and mommy it has been kinda difficult to find the time and to figure out what to write about. If you know me well then you know how totally scatter brained I am. Sometimes it's hard for me to form a complete sentence anyway...now, what was I saying?
I keep wondering what YOU would actually be interested in reading about. My life most certainly isn't a "superstars" life or anything that would keep the tabloids rolling. In fact, I...we... are really simple people.
So I suppose I could talk about my journey to become more like my good friend Sharon Palmer. I want to be one of those people who are considerate and caring. One of those people who never sit, are always up doing...one of the people that everyone admires because they care about their fellow man so much that they would quickly jerk the shirt off their own back to clothe them. I want to be a person who doesn't complain, who doesn't seek out the negative and who, at any given time when given a bushel of lemons, can make tons of lemonade.
I could discuss how difficult it is to start up a business. My dream is to one day be able to make a living on my photography. I want to travel the world... have a winter and summer home and give my kids all the opportunities that I NEVER even thought of as a kid. This is NOT to say I want my kids to be those spoiled rotten brats that feel like they have to have everything RIGHT NOW. In Fact, my kids are going to be those kids that drive the green car named "booger" because Mom and Dad think its IDIOTIC for them to drive $30,000 SUV's at 16. But thats for an entirely different day I think.
I could discuss the fact that we are looking for a home church. There are several we have visited and several more we plan on visiting ( Waldron Street Christian and First Presbyterian ) in the next few weeks. We want somewhere that we feel comfortable, that we feel led and that we believe would be the place we worship till the day we die. I am tired of not getting what I need spiritually. So we have become pro-active in our search.
For now, I believe that's a good start. So tell me... what do you want to read about?
I keep wondering what YOU would actually be interested in reading about. My life most certainly isn't a "superstars" life or anything that would keep the tabloids rolling. In fact, I...we... are really simple people.
So I suppose I could talk about my journey to become more like my good friend Sharon Palmer. I want to be one of those people who are considerate and caring. One of those people who never sit, are always up doing...one of the people that everyone admires because they care about their fellow man so much that they would quickly jerk the shirt off their own back to clothe them. I want to be a person who doesn't complain, who doesn't seek out the negative and who, at any given time when given a bushel of lemons, can make tons of lemonade.
I could discuss how difficult it is to start up a business. My dream is to one day be able to make a living on my photography. I want to travel the world... have a winter and summer home and give my kids all the opportunities that I NEVER even thought of as a kid. This is NOT to say I want my kids to be those spoiled rotten brats that feel like they have to have everything RIGHT NOW. In Fact, my kids are going to be those kids that drive the green car named "booger" because Mom and Dad think its IDIOTIC for them to drive $30,000 SUV's at 16. But thats for an entirely different day I think.
I could discuss the fact that we are looking for a home church. There are several we have visited and several more we plan on visiting ( Waldron Street Christian and First Presbyterian ) in the next few weeks. We want somewhere that we feel comfortable, that we feel led and that we believe would be the place we worship till the day we die. I am tired of not getting what I need spiritually. So we have become pro-active in our search.
For now, I believe that's a good start. So tell me... what do you want to read about?
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