Day 40-

End of the book of Montana...

It's sad as I sit here looking out the window. The beautiful trees and mountains...the rivers and lakes. It is all coming to an end for us in Montana soon. I tear up when I think about it. Even when our "book of Mississippi" ended I cried. I can't help it... I cry, just about over anything for that matter. Especially over change and big change really brings on the emotion.

We have made fantastic friends and wonderful memories here. So I should be enjoying our last two weeks here instead of feeling sorry for us and having a pity party. I just really, really have enjoyed Montana and feel lucky to be able to call it home, even if it was for a short time.

Most of my emotion stems from the fact that I have NO CLUE where we are going. It's hard coming from the life I had as a child and feeling those same emotions as an adult. It's a control thing. I take control, I must feel in control...control is my middle name. I don't have to control people so much as situations. In reality, we are never truly the one's in control... A wise man (my husband) once told me that control is an illusion. I suppose I really enjoy the mirage.

So here it is. I'm scared, excited, happy, sad and impatient all at the same time. >.<

I am asking, that all of our friends out there please just take a moment and remember us in your prayers. Smooth transition for our family...especially my kids. That Jason and I find jobs. That we get settled down wherever it is we are going so that we don't have to do this again. Health, happiness and mental wellbeing.

We love you all and will see most of you very soon, no matter where we end up we are planning on stopping in to see family on the way.